Monday, December 1, 2008

blueberries &/in cheese sauce.





goodnight, she said at the break of day and closed her eyes and opened her eyes and said, goodmorning.
you came by these doorjambs when the day was done and the cashregister had counted it's last, but i will lock the door behind you and you can turn the sign and not turn the lights out and tell me about the cracks in the sidewalks outside my picturewindows, he said. and she turned the sign and turned over letters and spelled every single word he had ever read, flipped the switch, and told him,
there are some cracks that would swallow your shoes and others that don't even know themselves. once i fell in up to my knees and my father threw me a rope and the rope turned into your arm and I held on tight and started flying.

goodnight, he said at the first of the morninglight and closed his eyes and opened his eyes and said goodmorning. a minute ago while i was dreaming, he said, i saw a thousand cracks and at the bottom of everysingleone there was a mirror and when i bent at the knee to look i did not see me, i saw you.
those were not mirrors, they were windows and behind those windows were portraits of me, and behind those portraits of me is where i sat, with answers. & waiting. i ate an oatmeal sandwich cut diagonally and drew a thousand pictures of my shoes not walking and not touching the ground.

and sometime afterall of this, he said, god, there are so many things in this life that are real and you are one and you have shown me another and this one has fingernails and eyeballs and is not hotwater.
and god said, son, there are. and there are things in this life that are more than real and i will show you one. and he did and there were a thousand colors in every single light and the air stopped moving and there were ripples on the backs of his hands and the bottoms of his shoes and, and.

and she turned to leave and she did not drive
and she turned to leave and she did not walk
and she turned to leave and she did not run
and she turned to leave and she did not crawl

and she turned to leave



and she flew.